i'm tired -

tired of people saying that studying marketing is of no use.
tired of not living. tired of not knowing what i want to do with my life.

i want to go somewhere. else.
those five months has opened my eyes to the world outside.

i want to be the curious tourist, camera and map in hand, capturing moments of what could be the most normal things in others' lives.

when i was just a little girl

you see, i had all these big dreams when i was just a little girl.
there were so many things that i wanted to be when i grew up.

there was a point, i wanted to be a teacher - inspiring kids. but i think it was mainly cause i liked my primary school teachers. there was the doctor phase, with the the saving lives and helping people thing going on.

at some point, i wanted to be a singer/actress (rich, famous and influential!). how can that possibly happen when i cant sing for nuts and possess one of the world's worst cases of stage fright?

ohoh! the pilot phase, cause of some hk tv drama (yeah, that's how easily influenced i am!) i did want to be a physiotherapist, right around the time my arms were loose. there's the cruise ship or resort that i wanted to work in (hk and korean show respectively).

so can someone tell me why am i in marketing?

lets all work in a happy place.

i still wanna work in a theme park.
perhaps operate one of those rollercoaster rides;

or dress up in red-and-yellow-stripes uniform selling churros and popcorn
I KNOW. one of those themeparks/carnivals by the beach will be nice too (:

I WANNA GO ON A HOLIDAY

squinting at the tiny address book
watching people go by helplessly